For a long time in my life, I thought I was happy—until I realised I wasn’t.
All things on the outside seemed to be perfect, but inside I was just sad. ??Five?? years ago, I was getting unhappier every single day. Every morning I woke up with anxiety and at night I was crying to fall asleep. At this time, I felt so unloved but mostly disconnected from myself. I did what I thought would help…because I had to do something! I took a sabbatical from work and did a Yoga Teacher Training. During the training I felt better, but after, I got back, and things just got worse.
On paper, I had “everything”, a flat, a husband, a cat, a car, a good paid corporate job as Global Head of New Business in a global company, friends and family around me.
When I came back from Mexico, I went back to my job. Meanwhile I was practising a lot of yoga and I started with teaching. Things were going well and I wasn’t really sad for a while. Then I got a job offer in London and I decided to take it. I moved to London without my husband. Honestly, at the start, I was so happy about it. I thought it would help me to focus on something new and it would help too for our marriage. At this time our marriage was at a very bad place.
We were constantly fighting, not understanding each other. Back in the days, I was blaming him for all of it. But it wasn’t him, it was me. I was so sad and so unfulfilled with my life in general. I expected him to help me and to make me happy. That obviously wasn’t really working.
We were constantly fighting, not understanding each other. Back in the days, I was blaming him for all of it. But it wasn’t him, it was me. I was so sad and so unfulfilled with my life in general. I expected him to help me and to make me happy. That obviously wasn’t really working.
Making all these changes didn’t make my life better—it made it worse.
Living in London without my friends and family, I fell into a severe depression. I suffered from sleep deprivation and lost the will to live.
Each morning felt like a battle. I had no purpose, no energy—just endless sadness. The things I once loved no longer lifted my mood. It didn’t matter where I was, what I was doing, or who I was with—sadness was the only feeling I knew.
I felt like a prisoner inside my own body. At least once a day, I would break down in tears—whether I was alone or in public.Eventually, I was diagnosed with depressive anxiety disorder. I felt like I had lost everything: my husband, my friends, my family, my home, and even myself. I was alone in London—and I couldn’t feel joy anymore.
My nephew was born during that time, and I hoped that holding him would fill me with love and happiness. But I felt nothing, and that emptiness was heartbreaking.Somehow, I kept functioning at work. But every morning, I cried while cycling to the office. I would stop in the garage, redo my makeup, and pretend everything was fine. But inside, I was barely holding on.Opening my laptop to 200 unread emails each day was overwhelming. I was mentally and emotionally exhausted.
I constantly asked myself: How am I going to survive this day?
Constantly thinking, I don’t want to be here, I don’t want to do this. This is not the life I want to have. This is not how I imagined being. That was going on for a good four-month. Sometimes when I was cycling back home on the busy London streets I thought to myself if a bus would hit me now wouldn’t be the worse thing. I ask myself if life could get any worse than that. I was so desperate for change. I tried many things to improve the way I felt but nothing seemed to work.
All I knew was I wanted to get out of it somehow. So I tried therapy which sometimes made it better for a couple of minutes after the session. Still, my general state was the same, even after ten sessions when my therapist suggested takin antidepressants.
But something inside me knew that I had the strength to fight this on my own.
She said, “Nadine, you need to make a decision. You can stop feeling the way you feel. Just decide you don’t want it anymore.”
When she said that, something inside me clicked. Something changed. After that call, I told myself, Okay, I’m going to be happy now. This is it.
The first thing I did was change my physical state. Instead of sitting with my shoulders slumped and head down, I sat upright with my chest lifted. In that moment, I decided I didn’t want to cry anymore. I had cried enough.
So, I put on some happy music and made myself smile. No, I didn’t feel happy right away—but I had made the decision that I wanted to. And that was powerful.
I realised that we can choose how we feel. If we change our thoughts and our physical state, we can change our emotions—and our life.
During my depression, I constantly focused on everything I had lost and how bad my life was. My thoughts lived in the past, and I had no hope for the future. I couldn’t even imagine a future without my husband. All the plans and dreams we had for our life were gone. And those were the thoughts I was repeating to myself for months
So I told myself, “I am changing these thoughts now. Life is good!” 🌞💫
I started to appreciate things about my life.
I had a roof over my head, I had my family, a good job, and friends—even if they weren’t in London. I had people I could call every day who would listen to me. Most importantly, I had my physical health and I had Yoga. So I chose to focus on that.
Then, I started to research what actually makes people happy. It took me a while to find what truly worked for me—trying different things and slowly implementing them into my life.
Another big change was how I spoke to my friends. Instead of always calling them to talk about how sad I was, I started sharing my small wins and the things I was grateful for. By changing my thoughts and words, I already began to feel stronger and more positive.
Gradually, I started to see the impact of other changes I had made—eating better, living a healthier lifestyle, and doing more Yoga.
Eventually, I decided to travel again. I returned to Mexico, where I had done my Yoga teacher training. I practised twice a day for ten days. When I came back, I knew I wanted to explore the world.
But I didn’t quit my job immediately. I took small steps—one by one—to become better, happier, healthier, and stronger. I worked on myself and focused on my personal development. I changed my inner world first. And as a result, my outer world started to transform naturally.
I realised how powerful we truly are. We can change our lives—but it all starts from within. Once you shift inside, your outer world will follow.
I felt a deep desire to help others. Supporting professional women in overcoming depression or anxiety means the world to me—because I’ve been there. I’ve done the inner work, read countless books, attended seminars, and became a certified life coach.
To be where I am now has taken my whole life—but the real transformation, from being depressed to being happy, fulfilled, and truly loving myself, took about three years.
Now, I want to help you get there faster. I want to share everything I’ve learned and all the tools I now have. I can’t wait to share this journey with the world.
My mission is to transform as many lives as I can.
During one of our last calls, my coach told me, “You’re going to help so many people.” At the time, I didn’t know how. But now, I do. I’ve gained the tools, the experience, and the clarity. And that’s exactly what I’m doing now—travelling the world, teaching Yoga 🧘♀️, hosting retreats, and coaching people to live happier, more fulfilled lives.
I’m living the life I once only dreamed of. Most importantly, I feel truly happy within myself. 💖
I became a certified Professional Life Coach because I want to help others find happiness too. Whether you’re struggling with depression, feeling lost, or simply searching for more out of life—I’m here to support you. 🤝
Together, we can uncover more meaning, purpose, and joy. I want to help you create a life that feels true to you. ✨
See you soon!
With love, 💛
Nadine
For a long time in my life, I thought I was happy until I realized I wasn´t.
All things on the outside seemed to be perfect, but inside I was just sad. Four years ago, I was getting unhappier every single day, waking up every morning with anxiety and at night crying myself to sleep. At this time, I felt so unloved but mostly disconnected from myself. So I did what I thought would help…because I had to do something! So I took a sabbatical from work and went to train as a Yoga Teacher. I felt better whilst training but after I got back things just got worse.
On paper, I had “everything”, a flat, a husband, a cat, a car, a good paid corporate job as Global Head of New Business in a global company, friends and family around me.
So I came back from Mexico, went back to my job, practised a lot of Yoga and started teaching. Things were going well and I wasn’t really sad for a while. Then I got a job offer in London and I decided to take it. So I moved to London without my husband. Honestly, at the start, I was so happy about it. I thought it would help me to focus on something new and would help our marriage because it was at a very bad place back then.
We were constantly fighting, not understanding each other. Back in the days, I was blaming him for all of it. But it wasn’t him it was me. I was so sad and so unfulfilled with my life in general and expected him to help me and to make me happy. That obviously wasn’t really working.
So I thought if I move to London I have something I can focus on and we can have a little bit of distance which will make things better. After one month in London, we decided to take a break from our marriage because we both thought we needed some time to ourselves.
Making all these changes didn´t make my life better, but worst.
In London without my friends and family, I fell into a severe depression with sleep deprivation, and I lost the will to live. I didn´t want to get up in the mornings because I had no purpose in life. I just was sad all the time; things I loved or that made me laugh at didn´t positively impact my mood. No matter where I went, what I did, with who I was, the only feeling was sadness. I felt hostage in my own body. Once a day, minimum, I started crying like a waterfall, no matter if I was alone at home or in public.
It was actually a diagnosed depressive anxiety disorder. I felt I lost everything, my husband, my friends, my family, my colleagues, my home. I was just alone in London and at that time I couldn’t feel joy for anything!
My nephew was born at that time and I wanted to have this feeling of love and happiness when I held him in my arms the first time but I just couldn’t feel it.
At work, I functioned somehow, but every day on the way there I was crying while cycling and had to redo my make-up in the garage before going up to the office. When I opened my laptop and looked at my 200 emails in my inbox every day I felt so overwhelmed.
I constantly ask myself how am I going to survive this day?
Constantly thinking, I don’t want to be here, I don’t want to do this. This is not the life I want to have. This is not how I imagined being. That was going on for a good four-month. Sometimes when I was cycling back home on the busy London streets I thought to myself if a bus would hit me now wouldn’t be the worse thing. I ask myself if life could get any worse than that. I was so desperate for change. I tried many things to improve the way I felt but nothing seemed to work.
All I knew was I wanted to get out of it somehow. So I tried therapy which sometimes made it better for a couple of minutes after the session. Still, my general state was the same, even after ten sessions when my therapist suggested taking antidepressants.
But something inside me knew that I had the strength to fight this on my own.
It was October, six months after I moved to London, feeling depressed constantly. This day was probably the worst day of my depression. I was constantly crying and couldn’t stop myself. So in the evening I had a call with my coach and explained what had happened and how I felt, and she gave me the best advice ever.
She said, “Nadine, you need to make a decision.
You can stop feeling the way you feel. Just decide you don’t want it anymore. When she said this, something inside me clicked! Something changed. After that call I told myself, ok, I am going to be happy now! This is it. First, I changed my physical state from my shoulders and head hanging down to sitting upright, with my chest up. At that moment I had decided that I didn’t want to cry anymore! I had enough of crying. I cried every day for the past one and a half years, and I didn’t want it anymore. So I put on some happy music, and I was forcing myself to smile. Of course, I wasn’t feeling happy immediately, but I decided I want to feel happy – which was very powerful! I realised we can decide how we feel. If we change our thoughts and our physical stage, we can change our emotions and how we feel!
During my depression, I constantly focused on what I have lost and how bad my life was. Always being in the past with my thoughts and also having no hope for the future. I couldn’t even imagine a future without my husband. All the plans and dreams for my life were gone. And this was what I was thinking for months.
So I told myself I am changing these thoughts now. Life is good! I started to appreciate things about my life.
That I had a roof over my head, I had my family; I had a good job. I had friends, even if they weren’t in London. I had people I could call every day who would listen to me. Mainly I had my physical health, and I had Yoga. So I tried to focus on that!
Then I started to research what makes people happy! It took me a long time to find things that worked for me. Trying them and implementing them into my life.
Another thing I changed was the way I was talking to my friends. Instead of calling them and telling them how sad my life was, I told them now about my little achievements and the things I appreciated. After changing my thoughts and words, I felt already stronger and happier and slowly. I could also notice the improvements from the things I changed before, like improving my diet, being more healthy, doing more Yoga.
Finally, I decided to travel again, so I went back to Mexico, where I did my teacher training and practised twice a day for ten days.When I came back from Mexico, I decided that I wanted to travel the world. But I didn’t quit my job immediately. I started making small changes step by step to become better, happier, healthier and stronger. I worked a lot on myself and my personal development to change my inner state first before I quit my job and started travelling the world and teaching Yoga.
Also, I realised how powerful we are. We can change our world and change our lives, but it starts with changing something within. Once you make a shift within, then you can start making changes on the outside. And your outside world will change automatically.
I had that desire to help people! This is what I started doing. Supporting professional women to overcome depression or anxiety means so much to me because I have this knowledge and understanding, and it took me so long to figure this out! I tried so many different things, read so many books, attended many seminars, studied to become a professional life coach myself. Overall to be where I am now taking me such a long time, actually my entire life. But from being depressed to being happy, fulfilled and loving how I am, maybe a good three years! I want to help you to get there faster! And share all the knowledge I have now with you. I can not wait to share this with the world.
My mission is to transform as many lives as I can.
My coach also said this to me in our last call, that I will help so many people, but I didn’t know-how. But now, I have these tools and found a way of helping people. And this is what I am doing now! I am travelling the world, teaching Yoga, running Yoga retreats and coaching people, helping them be happier. So I am living the best life I could ever imagine, and I am so happy within myself.
I did my training to become a Professional Life Coach because I want to help others to discover more happiness as well. No matter if you are suffering from depression or just seeking more. I can help you to find more meaning and purpose in your life and to become happier to live life under your terms.
See you soon! Love Nadine
